So today is the orientation thing for those who are doing a kirkwood class next year as a senior. This means they have their core classes in the morning at kennedy and then go do their kirkwood class in the afternoon. I am one of those people and boy am i nervous. It's so weird to think i'm actually going to be on a college campus with college kids (boys!) next year, the year i'm supposed to be feeling like the top dog, but am merely the baby of the bunch. How odd it is going to be next year, big kid in the beginning of the day and squirt at the end. I'm mostly excited, but still incredibly nervous. Senior year is already playing out to look like full of excitement!

Things that make my day
-hearing a led zeppelin song on the radio
-hearing any good, under played song on the radio
-hearing a string of good, under played songs on the radio
-being told a ridiculously dumb joke
-making inside jokes
-joking with others about others (it’s all in good fun)
-seeing the forecast predicts rain
-being outside when the rain starts
-getting to run/drive through the puddles from the rain
-being reminded of an old friend
-hearing from a friend
-being around friends
-turning on the TV just in time for a good show (sponge bob)
-having it be a good episode of a good show
-watching re-runs of old[ish] good shows (the cosby show)
-being told I look cute
-being told I look cute from someone who is cute
-telling someone they're cute
-knowing what's going on in class (ready for the test)
-feeling good taking the test
-getting the test back with a good grade
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If everyone fears of being judged, why do we continue to do so?

just getting it done to make the grade

My blogging skills have fallen in the current along with everyone else’s and are now just crap. No longer is there any depth or internal thought involved with the posts, it’s more like crappy get three blogs done in less than an hour kind of writing that I used to try and be very good to avoid. However I have fallen into the slump that most have and quite frankly, am not pushing my hardest to get out of. It’s just too easy to go with the flow. I used to feel pressure to actually have an intelligent appearance and feel to my blog, but I have now come to realize no one reads it. Why bother? Simply this is just a completion grade, and I need to just get these blogs done to make the grade. Not to mention summer is very nearly here, I’m sure Mr. Ayers has noticed the trend in blogs, better known as slacking off.

I’m not complaining about blogging. I do understand and agree with the fact that the only way to get better at writing is to force yourself to just do it, no matter how much you tell yourself the content you are currently spending your time on is grade A bologna. Mr. Moran made a great deal of that point, hence he graded mostly on word count rather than the actual content of the paper.

Yet, it is undoubtedly true that a piece doesn't have to be 600 words to be good. There are many pieces of writing that are very good and well written that only consist of a couple hundred words, maybe even less. And on the contrary, there can be writing that’s a few thousand words long and still be straight up awful.

There is a quote that I find to be perfect for blogging, “quantity, not quality.”

So with that being said, that’s exactly what I am going to do. I’m going to be rid of the delusion that people, besides Mr. Ayers actually read my blog, and then take down my wall of pride of thinking that every post has to be superior to the previous one. Funny how the more I write about how I’m terrible at blogging, the better of a writer I’m actually becoming. I feel enlightened.

Recently my blogs have been terrible, refer back to earlier posts if you wish to see writing that i actually put time and energy into.

mood changers

Some people claim they just wake up angry, before the day has even really started and before they really have anything to be angry about. Some people just wake up happy, glad that it's a new day, or for no reason in particular. But it's the beginning of the day, what is there to be joyful or upset about? I feel I don't have much emotion to express once I wake up, if anything I would just rather go back to bed. However, once I do acknowledge the day and what there is to bring that affects my mood.
Shouldn't that be what it's like for everyone?
If we were to all wear things that indicated our mood and how often it changed I'm sure that thing would be going off the Richter scale in mood swings. I am really interested now as to how much the average person changes their mood, and how many times they go back to the same mood in a day.

Trying to find some information on mood changes, I came across a short quiz. Give it a go, it is kind of interesting. (I'm a tree)
http://www.sam-e.com/learn/quiz?utm_source=google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_term=mood+swings&utm_campaign=Nature+Made+sam-E

Of course our mood is affected by our environment and our diet and sleep patterns, but is there people who are just genetically happier or moodier then others?

"You have about as much choice in some aspects of your personality," Hamer and co-author Peter Copeland write in the introductory chapter, "as you do in the shape of your nose or the size of your feet."

This is regarding personality, but mood is just a step away from personality, isn't it? However, looking further into the article, "specific strips of DNA that appear to influence everything from mood to sexual orientation." is what this Hamer guy was experimenting with. It goes into great depth of this, and other things along the same line.
I found the article at http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,139036,00.html

I also found that there is a relatively popular book on the subject called Mood Genes by Samuel H. Barondes. It seems interesting, and I'm contemplating whether or not I should find it, read it, and then blog about it.

I'll keep you posted.

What we really want in the opposite sex

At this age, we all know what guys are looking for in a girl, and I don't feel the need to explain such. However, once all the hormones start settle out and they're out of the high school environment, they start to look for other things in a girl, and since forever, girls have been trying to figure out what that something is that guys like. My conclusion? There isn't any one thing that girls can say or do or look like that will get them any guy they want. I don't think there is a single constant in what kind of girls that guys go for, because no guy is the exact same and no girl is the exact same.

So what is it that we look for in the opposite sex? Is what we find attractive simply by nature? or somewhat corrupted by nurture? Naturally, girls are attracted to guys and guys are attracted to girls, however what is found to be desirable I think is by nurture. Different countries and cultures have different things that they are infatuated by. But what makes it all so different? We all are made up the same stuff after all, physically that is. So maybe most are all attracted to similar things physically, and it's the mental aspect that makes everyone so different.

While seeking an answer to my many questions, I came across this little excerpt on answerbag.com to the question why do we find intelligence so attractive? and some one's response.

"Intelligence is like this special key that opens up many doors to opportunity in life. I had to check out my good friend, dictionary.com, to find other buzz words that had such a magnetic appeal. In doing this, I made a rather interesting discovery.

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/intelligence

I was struck by how each definition was constructed the same way. A very meaningful noun followed by a series of attributes in a prepositional phrase. I am not trying to be a grammarian here. My point is, "capacity", "manifestation", "faculty", "knowledge," and "gathering" are highly functional concepts. Someone intelligent, possessing these attributes, is a mover and shaker. Someone who gets things done. Someone who can grasp, absorb, and dynamically respond to life around them.

It is fiercely attractive to admire and respect someone. Those aforementioned terms say so much. What am I looking for in a significant other? The *capacity* to love, understand, and grow. The *manifestation* of love in action - of getting things done - forward moving - fruition. The *faculty* to appreciate classiness, maturity, and empathy. The ability to acquire and apply *knowledge* via education, common sense, and an in-tuned sense of personal growth. And, finally, the *gathering* of all these very special, unique gifts into a collective whole that is fully conscious. Such a person gives off an aura so strong that it almost feels like a physical quality.

The prepositional clauses that follow these lofty words give insight about how intelligence reaches out to touch and interact with the outside world - ideas, truths, people, meaning. People project who they are. True intelligence is so attractive because it radiates a sense of someone that makes him/ her almost glow."


After reading this I am simply convinced that intelligence is what we look for in the opposite sex, and the level of intelligence is what differs from person to person. Of course intelligence can't be the only thing we look for, and just some one's intellect on the concept can't be the absolute solution. So I decided to try and find a scientific fact as to what we find attractive, physically that is. This is a little something that I found.


Blue eyes are likely found to be so attractive because you can clearly see the difference between the iris and the pupil, and when you talk to someone you're attracted to, your eyes dilate a little bit. If you see a person's pupils dilate when you look them in the eye, you subconsciously find it attractive.(www.tmpnetwork.com/general_sciences/Why_Aren_t_Humans_Furry?offset=51)

What I thought was interesting about this,(whether or not it is true, you never know with the Internet) was it mentioned what our subconsciousness found to be magnetic, because our subconscious desires factor just as much as our conscience ones do into physical and emotional infatuation. I'm thinking I would enjoy doing some further research on this.